dReaMs oF miNe...

2010-06-28T11:21:00.002+08:00

Had Muay Thai camp during the weekend.
haha.
had to say, before the camp i was looking forward to it a little. =
although it was quite a turn off that that was the last weekend before school started again.

Took many hits during the practice spar that nearly made me cry.
I've got bruises to prove, lol.
but i gotta thank the person who beat me up that bad, cuz i realised one ugly side of fighting.
it hurts.

it wore me out so much, i didn't want to go for the actual spar later on at all.
the friggin bruises hurt and i was outta breath after that practice.
and then i had new found respect for the seniors, cause they have fought so many times, and still continue to want to fight.

I lost in the practice spar.

and i learnt something else about fighting.
don't give the person rest till they turn away.
the moment you get the chance, start hitting and don't stop.

I'm glad i took all those knocks during the practice spar, cause i won't take fighting so lightly now.

i beat the first person i fought.
but a friend told me i wasn't hitting hard.
maybe i'm just not much of a fighter, because i never want to beat up a person as if i hate him/her.
its just not nice at all.
and so maybe i wasn't giving it my all but when i think about it, i don't think i want to if the person hasn't done anything to me.

and then second round was bad.
i hit the person in the face when she wasn't blocking and i think it hurt.
and she got extremely flustered so had to stop the fight.
i was so afraid i'd caused some serious injury or something.
and it was pretty damn traumatising.
and that just reinforced the point i made just now.
i mean, i ended up hurting a person when i'm supposed to be loving him/her.
i have not the heart to hurt others.

now i might not willingly go for a spar anymore.

2010-06-23T12:56:00.002+08:00

its been too long since i last blogged.
this kinda feels nostalgic, hehe.

School's been just kinda dreamy.
i mean, its just hard to believe that i make films and draw storyboards for homework while other people do maths and physics and all those wordy, numbery things.
in school i learn how to work the sound equipment, turn footage into actual videos..
its pretty darn cool.
the stuff i was doing for cca in secondary school is now the main thing i have to do for poly. haha.

but then again it gets quite.. i dunno. tiring?
lol. i'm not even into second year and i'm saying this.
I think i'm just not the kind that likes doing work outdoors.
and then theres that i wanna really do things well, i just don't know how to and in the end it doesn't turn out as nicely as i want it to and it gets frustrating.

i like writing the script,
i don't like executing it.
i like editing.
and i conclude that my ideal kinda work is one where i can sit down alone indoors and work on something i'm good at. hahhaha. i'm lazy to go out man =_=

2010-02-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

man its been another long absence from the blogging world!!
not that i explore much of it =_=

TODAY IS THE DAY I FINALLY STOP WORKING FULL TIME IN THE OFFICE!
and i was so happy after leaving the building.
but it kinda saddens me that i have time but i won't be earning money anymore =(
ah well.
anyway, in future unless i'm left with no choice,
i will NOT work in an office as any kinda of admin staff again =_=
that kinda life just seriously sucks.

now i'll spend my time with my beloved guitar,
prepping for 1st april (its diana's bday! and i miss her furriness)
when i'll be auditioning for the busking license ^^
i'm still waiting for news about the amp i've yet to buy though.
swee li ran out of stock.

aside from that, i actually am not sure what to do with the remaining holiday.

go look for a good cheap external flash for my camera..
then start being a proper photographer i guess?
i've decided not to upgrade anyway.. i don't wanna spend so much. sigh.
my family is going broke!

and maybe go out more with poon? hehe.
help cherlyn with helping junshen with his studies i suppose.. lol!
ah well, we'll see when all the free time comes charging at me.
but man, those 3 months of work were a torture.

till next time!

2010-01-22T21:32:00.001+08:00

lol i had to leave the place with the wifi for the last post so its incomplete!
anyway on thursday i slept at 5.30am editing a video ^^
i miss pahang already.
and i'm real sian, cuz i gotta work full day tmr, sigh.
i wanna stop working.

days in pahang

2010-01-21T12:29:00.002+08:00

so everything's been fine this far into the camp!
tomorrow we'll all be heading back to singapore by train, and i gotta say, i'll miss this place (even though i never got to interact much with the place like my juniors did..)

Day 1 was spent mostly in the bus travelling (i like long journeys =) i sit in the bus and after a while i wanna stay like that forever ) Then went to hotel and then to the different campsites to check on the peeps (they were pitching tents!) had to sit a short little boat ride across a river to one of them =D it was like a real long sampan divided into many sections for ppl to sit.

Day two, went to see how the 'higher' activities were going (rock climbing, absailing.. Flying fox, river crossing.. White water rafting). My cam ran out of batt! Ah! But anyway before that happened i rock climbed =D oh yeah and then at night the group at the caves had to go on a solo walk in the pitch black path to the campsite from some distance away! I stood with the teachers next to a small river so the ppl won't fall in ^^ and the darkness was quite terrible. Kept imagining lots of random things.

Day three, went to see how activities for 'faster' group was going! They had to cycle 54kms xD one day i'll try that. Then checked on the 'stronger' group, watched a chicken get killed and then went back to see how cyclists were doing!

2010-01-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

oookay results out tmr!

and i guess i'm not that nervous about it because now i'm planning to go into film, sound and video - ngee ann poly.

and i have a high chance of getting in through jpsae~

yaye for ngee ann poly!

the courses there seem to appeal to me more than courses from other polys, haha!

maybe its their combinations.

like psychology and community service.

i've been really wanting to create my own video, with script and music by me too!

it'll be so cool.

so anyone reading this who's interested to help - videography, sound, storyboarding, advising on script, acting, actressing, SPONSORING,

please please please don't hesitate to contact me!

the short film i'm envisioning is kinda emo, with humour here and there of course!

but my main goal is to touch at least a little spot in the viewer's heart.

make them reflect on their own lives.

make them think - wow, what a great video!

like the way i feel when i watch a good short film =D

2010-01-06T22:03:00.002+08:00

working life in an office is real horrible..

i dunno how those peeps who work there do it.

the work just never ends and you do the same things again and again.

sigh.

anyway, super great song from 30 seconds to mars!

2009-12-27T00:50:00.006+08:00

THERE'S A CONVERSE SALE AND I WAS IN IT!! ='(

i shouldn't be that cheap...

2009-12-25T23:33:00.006+08:00

http://www.myspace.com/daphkhoo

daphne khoo has some real nice music!

go listen to 'i'm sorry'!

YESTERDAY was like, a full day of events man!

went to work in the morning and then asked for half day leave,

then went to church for rehearsal,

then joshua came and we set up his real cool doll thing!

and then i had a photoshoot with 'her' hehe!

she's real cool man!~

the event itself went pretty well~

i had to be photographer for cantonese service's programme too, lol.

then afterwards watched avatar for the second time,

then went to poon's house and configured the macbook!

and i'm finding macbooks kinda cool eh.. hha!

but still, dumb.

then today i went to ion and 313 with cousins and then ecp for an extended family gathering lols.

and got bored there.

so i emo-ed a bit.

=_=

2009-12-22T20:51:00.007+08:00

WAAAAH hisashiburi-dane, blog!!!

okay wow i really haven't blogged in a long time!

its been 41 days since Os ended (which was also since i dyed my hair and became 'ah lian' =_= i wanted silver okay!)

much has happened!

grad night - it kinda sucked to not be picked for lucky draw! i mean, so many sec fives were! cherlyn and i just sat there like bums xD but the lucky draw wasn't the most pressing issue on my mind at that time luh so.. =x

everyone looked great! and i really wished sihui was prom queen.. too bad express peeps make up the majority of the graduating batch hehe!

got the job at changi airport polar but rejected it for an office job!

and i gotta say, work now is a lot worse than school =(

except for the fact that i get air con the whole day..

but i just friggin sit in front of the computer typing stuff in the whole day!

and there aren't classmates around you.

ypm camp was grreeeeaat!!

ya theres nothing much else i can say about it xD

it was just great!

had a surprise birthday celebration on i-forgot-which-day!

i totally didn't expect it!

after dinner i was clearing up the place, and justinA was standing up in front of me going "eh dun leh.."

and then someone called me and then i stood up and yunhui was there with the green bengawan solo cake i'd been wanting to try~

ahahaha! love everyone!

anyway here's an uber awesome song i chanced upon while tube-surfing for more of kina grannis!

and then while working i heard the original version playing on a colleague's radio!

and then at night i couldn't sleep till i heard it again ^^

some things you do still confuse me, but it doesn't give me heartache like it used to.

i honestly hope now that you see nothing between us. cause if you do i won't be able to accept it.

2009-10-10T01:00:00.003+08:00

darn it i wish my dad didn't do so much for me.

he bought me my $900 bicycle weeks ago,

and last week he bought me my dream phone (another $348)

and i feel so bad.

cuz he's already short on cash and i can't do anything.

i'm gonna try spending as little as i can.. =(

and WORK during the holidays as much as i can.

darn it why do the things i want cost so much.

well anyway,

HELLO blog! its been a long long time..

had a farewell assembly yesterday,

exams are in two weeks,

and i'm going back to school to study everyday.

today's weather was so sucky that i nearly died (not literally)

after 3+ hours of A maths consultation, doing my weakest topic ( iHATEtrigo)

went home, ate dinner,

went to sleep and woke up at 9.22m.

and bathed, and so far i've only done one english summary.

and its not even the full thing.

i only picked out points.

oh happy anniversary, st and poon!

2009-08-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry beloved blog, i haven't touched you in eons..

2009-08-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

life is what we make of it.
we could have chosen not to walk down the same path again,
but we find ourselves on it once more,
pitting ourselves against all the hurt
- from betrayal, from rejection..
from words and actions that make us feel as if
we'd been stabbed by a white hot blade.

We walk down that same path for a reason.
maybe we're all just looking for something.
we keep convincing ourselves, though,
that that trail full of thorns and hidden traps
would lead us to the thing we're looking for.
even though we can't see where that road leads,
even though we don't exactly know what we're looking for in the first place.

the path is sometimes good,
there's a rainbow overhead, the sun's shinning,
and suddenly we drop into a pit and it starts raining.
but life goes on, and we pick ourselves up.
it goes on and we grow tired of it.

sometimes a really feel like going blind.
maybe then i'd be able to see things in a different light.
maybe going mute wouldn't be that bad either,
then i'll listen better.
i really wouldn't mind.

2009-07-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

Another song i listened to for the first time and fell in love with~

MELEE - THE WAR.

2009-07-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

another two great songs ^^

this is why i'm a fan of colbie caillat..

Droplets

Permanent

2009-07-15T18:43:00.003+08:00

two songs i just fell in love with!

colbie caillat - fallin' for you

Taylor Swift ft. colbie caillat

2009-07-06T21:56:00.003+08:00

MY WEEKENDS ARE SUPER UNPRODUCTIVE.

since my usual reaching hone time is about 4+,

i end up reading the paper in the kitchen to rest a while,

and before i know it, my mom's home and she starts cooking,

and then i find myself in the kitchen helping her.

then tv.

then durian (lately i've been eating A LOT, but durian season's ending soon =/)

and so i end up not studying for the whole day.

argh.

anyway,

today after tuition i met mom, uncle n popo for lunch,

then walked around parkway,

and i bought a $23.something jeans and $9.90 jacket from baleno.

and I REALLY LIKE THE JACKET!

its very red, and white. lol.

but i really like it.

and i'm in love with electrico's songs again.

some are so emo.

my style man, totally.

i'm glad they did this year's ndp song.

2009-06-26T10:36:00.002+08:00

Hello!

i just felt like blogging eh..

lol.

i gotta be at parkway at 11 for tuition!

and yeah im still here blogging,

cuz my mom asked me to make an invoice for her..

might be badminton-ing with song today!

and nothing else.

or maybe i'll go swim.

ytd i did nothing at all =_=

2009-06-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

GRAVITY - Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be.
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile. When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be.
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're
everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.
You’re on to me, you’re on to me and all over…
Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.

2009-06-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

this song's been stuck in my head since i heard someone sing it at ecp.

at one of those places which have live performances.

anyway yesterday's night cycling was so fun =D

was actually a reccee trip for sp cyclist event.

so at 9 pm left the house, then went to ecp to meet the people who were going.

mostly sp people whom i didnt know.

set off from ecp at 12am because we had to wait for SOMEONE xP

and went to esplanade, then glutton's bay,

then went to marina barrage where we slacked around..

then past istana, newton's food centre, went to upper thomson to eat roti prata,

then made our way back, going by ang mo kio.

super tiring! thank goodness we had a lot of pit stops.

too many to be good, but still, at least it let my sore butt rest a while.

reached home at around 7am ^^

then bathed, and slept, and woke up at 1+

2009-06-18T21:24:00.002+08:00

liking someone is like liking a car.

sometimes you just like one the moment you see it.

then it takes a special place in your heart.

For some reason that car will be different from all the rest.

the other cars may look somewhat the same, maybe even nicer.

but deep down those other cars will never be able to take the place of the car you want.

Sometimes getting that car is beyond your means.

or maybe other people tell you that its not good.

so you look around for other cars, and some of them seem nice.

and you decide that you like those other cars as well.

you think,"maybe that other car would do.."

but you realise that the feelings you get when you ride that other car

will never match the elation of being in your dream car.

2009-06-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

this picture was taken at pulau ubin, at the chek jawa area..

its now my desktop picture ^^

and nothing much happened today,

except that i read more pride and prejudice,

and went to view a fishing boat for tomorrow..

my bro may be renting it and the family'll go out to sea haha.

but it wasnt the kind of boat we had in mind so.. yeah.

i think i'll wanna swim if the water's not too dirty.

cuz i haven't jumped into the sea for a while! =D

2009-06-16T00:03:00.003+08:00

hahaha lol! i like my face xD

anyway, yeah this is my 3rd post for the day. i think i've been slacking too much.

i'm rather sleepy fr some reason. sigh. i shall go bathe and sleep. ^^

joycepoon cheer up!

i'm still waiting for the day you'll pass me the box.

2009-06-15T20:58:00.002+08:00

i'm a new fan of electrico's!!

because i find four of their songs really nice. ^^

and i kinda like their song styles.

anyway, i'm so happy!

cuz i set up a surround sound system for my com table!

LOL.

and basically it only has two small speakers.

hhahaha!

but like, i stuck it to the top of the computer table..

under the piece of wood thats for putting the printer.

and i call it my surround sound system!

today went to school for meeting, to discuss the council camp's night walk.

and i found it kinda fun, surprisingly.

we scared ourselves quite a bit i think.

to think planning to scare others could end up with you being scared as well.

i'm planning to write another song!

2009-06-15T01:51:00.002+08:00

"Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on? The one person who can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to be okay with it, and no matter how many times you say this is your last time, you know it's a lie because there's always just one more time waiting for them. The one person you know you're better off without but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside you wouldn't know what to do without them. The one person that you know doesn't deserve you at your very best but yet you choose to overlook it. Forget about all the reasons why something may not work. You only need to find one good reason why it will. Just because it's not what you were expecting, doesn't mean it's not everything you've been waiting for.

Find yourself before you fall in love so you bring with you everything you need to weather all conditions and the peaks and troughs that are the process of loving. To achieve real intimacy in a relationship you need to reveal yourself, to be honest and truthful, to communicate openly, you must surrender your ego, have your flaws scrutinized and accept and love the flaws in another. If you can both be truly intimate in these ways, your love will then continue to grow. Cuz relationships are about give and give & not give and take. You know you are with the right person when they give as much as you.

Cuz maybe the one that truly loves you isn't the one that says they'll never hurt you, but the one that does, and then stays through the pain and the tears to make amends.

So once you know what you want, you run. You run like hell until you catch it. And then, you never let it go."

joyce poon showed this to me.. and yeah.

2009-06-11T23:43:00.001+08:00

yay abc peoples are back!

i cycled to church to welcome them just now lols!

yeah i just realized thats all i have to say.. mmmm...

till next time!

2009-06-10T22:00:00.003+08:00

Application for direct poly opens on the 8th july, and 2pm!

and i've nearly got my portfolio done. lol.

just need the testimonials from form teacher and cca teacher,

and i need to do a write up on why i wanna enter the course =D

yeap and you can call me kia su now. ^^

today was a really humid day!

went to school, and there was a mock A maths exam.

and the group of us still taught each other how to do stuff near the end. lol

so much for mock exam.

then i went to popular and looked around for sheet protectors or

clear folders,

then spent quite a while there deciding which was more worth my money.

and then when i decided,"the sheet protectors more worth la.."

i had to choose between this brand at that brand..

the 0.05mm one and the 0.06mm one.

the cheaper one or the more expensive one?

sian.

yeap u can call me fickle-minded too..

and then when i came back,

i fed baby bird,

watered the plants (its kinda fun when u use the water hose and splash everywhere! xD)

swept the porch (irritating cuz of all the feathers and fur flying everywhere)

and gathered my things for the portfolio.

and by the end of the day i was so sticky! eugh.

i fell in love with this song, and kara dioguardi's voice.

i just don't like her character man.. =.=

2009-06-08T16:33:00.003+08:00

today's like, sore throat and cold day.

when i woke up this morning i was feeling pretty terrible.

so i decided not to go to school cuz like, =.=

later i pass to people.

anyway, i'm missing some people already.

who've gone to malaysia for church camp! >_<

till thursday leh haha.

i'm kinda bored without u joycepoon!

but i hope you'll figure yourself out there.

talked some stuff with friends.

and now i'm going down into the pit of despair again.

and i'm just wishing i would be able to get over it.

should i go watch terminator salvation tonight?

2009-06-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

PPTTC (powerpraise team training camp) WAS GREEEAAAT!

it was the most unique camp i've ever gone for, hah!

because

i had to go school for all the days,
the camp was pretty small (quite uncommon for church camps, i think..)
i really could tell that the camp was very spirit led
we woke up at 5.30am, and assembled at 6 for two of the days just to watch crazy people dance some hilarious dances xD
i did something i really didnt expect to do, which was support sing, insead of playing the guitar.

lol yeah. basically this camp's special! hahaha.

mm. now i dunno what to say anymore.

so yup!

2009-05-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

yay,

i'm blogging again ^^

and as usual i shall start with the weather

(maybe its becoming my habit to say something about the weather to open blog entries eh?)

and erm, today was pretty alright, =D

for once, release from the usual baking heat from the sun - it was rainy today!

hurrah for dark clouds, heh!

and i didn't sleep in school.. or did i? can't rmb.. lol.

sleeping in sch is such a normal thing for me.

dunno why SOME people dunno how to sleep with head on table xD

okayokay.

for english lesson cherlyn and i had to present an article,

super impromtu luh!

we were first to go >_<

=.=

....

and we also realized how some from sec four batch of 2009 looks

just like the graduated batch of 2008.

so sad!

we miss them!

and sg's first case of H1N1!

dunno what to say about that,

but frankly i'm a little worried, haha.

and i found out today, its 2 months to prelims,

not 3.

x_x

country music, anyone?

2009-05-27T00:33:00.002+08:00

hahaha,

i haven't updated my blog in quite a while eh?

and firstly, for lack of things to blog about,

i shall comment on the weather.

IT SUCKS.

yup.

the humidity kills man.

makes me so lethargic.

i find myself sleepy all the time,

and then when i get home from somewhere i end up sleeping,

and before i know it, its night time when i wake up.

yeah so, i gotta stop sleeping in the afternoons.

no more fiestas.

and erm...

okay my grandma moved in with us!

so i sleep on the upper bunk now, heh!

so cosy,

ilike my super downsized bed.

from queen to single. haha!

woots, 3 months to prelims!

must study!

here's a song going out to me.. haha, =.=

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you out of my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I just can't find
The courage to show to let you know
I've never felt love like this before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me ?
How will I know if I let you go ?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why don't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

2009-05-19T09:52:00.002+08:00

dad got me a 320gig portable hard disk ytd, i'm so happy ^^

i really needed someplace to keep my photos..

ahh so anyway,

ytd after exams i stayed home the rest of the day,

spent time with my lappie.

wasted time on restaurant city,

tried learning 'unwell' by matchbox 20..

fell in love yet again with bossa nova,

and decided i'd try to learn portugese one day haha.

sounds like a hard language though..

worse than jap i think xD

grandfather passed away yesterday..

virus infection.

my mom told me how my aunty in NZ hadnt seen him in 6 years cuz she couldnt return to SG.

felt a little saddened by that.

poor aunty.

anyway, rest in peace gong gong. :)

more eddie vedder songs..

they're really good!

Oh, it's a mystery to me
We have a greed with which we have agreed
And you think you have to want more than you need
Until you have it all you won't be free

Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me...

When you want more than you have
You think you need...
And when you think more than you want
Your thoughts begin to bleed
I think I need to find a bigger place
Because when you have more than you think
You need more space

Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me...
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me...

There's those thinking, more-or-less, less is more
But if less is more, how you keeping score?
Means for every point you make, your level drops
Kinda like you're starting from the top
You can't do that...

Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me...
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me...

Society, have mercy on me
Hope you're not angry if I disagree...
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me...

2009-05-18T23:44:00.001+08:00

omgoodness i really really rEALLY LOVE BOSSA NOVA.

so much feeling!

makes me wanna learn portugese.

and i think i will, heh!

2009-05-18T13:17:00.001+08:00

maybe i'll play the intro in my dreams.. =.=

its so nice lar!

but so difficult to play it nice and smoooth.. the tabs are a bit weird. lol.

2009-05-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

haha i'm hooked on this stupid game!

and yeah, i know its stupid, but i still play.

lol.

i hired cherlyn, poon and becky!

kay anyway,

i'm left with poa paper 1 and E maths paper 1 on monday,

after that mid years are over.

theres 5 more months to Os,

i guess i shall start studying after school from now!

i'm already in the process of making a list of things to do after Os.

so the holidays are DEFINITELY not gonna be boring.

see ah..:

watch kyle xy, heroes season 1-3, house, joan of arcadia
play sims 3 (which joycepoon will crack for me.. right?)
learn to play dota (lol xD)
learn to play left 4 dead
work with cherlyn (yeah, i really need the money. and im looking forward to working with cherlyn!! heheheh.. can disturb her more =x)
take dance lessons (if im not too broke)
mission trip
theres ypm camp, of course.
read the whole twilight saga
try to learn more bossa nova (i doubt i'll do much of that, cuz its difficult!)
go arab street with joycepoon to take pics of grafitti
play more badminton
roller blade more (if i get my par of blades by then)
have a gig at ben&jerry's @ cathay with some keyboardist (hoepfully i can get a keyboardist... or i'll have to do it alone o.0)

yeah im adding more to it over time..

haha, see? holidays sure packed. xD

i can't wait.

i mean, c'mon, its the period of time where i can forget about results and just do the things i want before reality will come crashing over me.

but i know i'll get into tp psychology la. ^^

faith can move mountains, and i have faith. =D

2009-05-12T14:17:00.001+08:00

joyce poon gave me the link to this song.

and at first i didnt find it that great,

but the chorus got stuck in my mind. lol.

2009-05-08T17:19:00.003+08:00

i watched 'into the wild' today cuz my bro rented the dvd,

and wanted me to watch.

its very nice!

kristen bell's inside haha.

you'll be able to hear her sing if you watch! ^^

but anyway, i kinda liked the theme song..

2009-05-06T13:26:00.000+08:00

I want you between me and the feeling I get
When I miss you
But everything here is telling me I should be fine
So why is it so above as below
That I'm missing you every time

I got used to you whispering things to me
Into the evening
We follow the sun and his colors left this world
It seems to me that I'm definitely
Hearing the best that I've heard

So throw me a rope
To hold me in place
Show me a clock
For counting my days down
Cause everything's easier when your beside me
Come back and find me
Cause I feel alone

And whenever you go
It's like holding my breath under water
I have to admit
That I kinda like it when I do
Oh but I got to be unconditionally
Unafraid of my days without you

So throw me a rope
To hold me in place
Show me a clock
For counting my days down
Cause everything's easier when your beside me
Come back and find me

Whenever I'm falling
You're always behind me
Come back and find me
Everything's easier when you're beside me
Come back and find me
Cause I feel alone

I DUNNO WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT.

2009-05-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

but joycepoon's been pestering me to, so i'll blog.

lol.

ytd was another day i marked in my calender.

when i reached home (10.30+?) i showered,

then wore my jogging shirt,

and went to jog.

decided to run to ecp,

but then before i could run past telok kurau my mom called and told me it was raining =_=

and that she was gonna come and pick me up.

it wasnt raining on my side though. after the call it just started drizzling VERY lightly.

meh, she spoiled my jogging trip!

after picking me up the drizzle stopped though.

lols.

then i got home and mucked around.

about 2am i saw lots of lightning,

so i went outside and sat down with my dog.

it started raining.

so nice.

the lightning was so bright.

but er, i decided to go in cuz i didnt want

my mom asking bout wet clothes in the laundry basket.

about 2.25am my bro came back in a cab and it was pouring like mad.

3am i decided to sleep.

and that was my emo day.

2009-05-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

i squashed some feelings into a ring and i threw that ring away.

i guess, even though some things may seem overwhelming now,

it'll all pass in future.

get well soon, everyone.

get well from your heartaches.

2009-04-30T23:23:00.001+08:00

Paramore - My hero

lol i heard it playing on a 98.7 advert.

its so nice!

2009-04-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

Taylor swift - You're not sorry

ll this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances
Everytime and all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I've figured you out
And you thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry
No, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you
If I didn't know
Could have loved you all my life
If you had'nt left me waiting
In the cold
And you've got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
'Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry
No, no, oh
You're not sorry
No, no, oh

You had me crawling for you honey
And it never would have gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry
No, no, oh
You're not sorry
No, no, oh...

2009-04-25T00:56:00.002+08:00

this morning while in my mom's car,

i heard this song on the radio..

and fell in love with it. ^^

today jammed a little at home with joycepoon and sarah,

then went to downtown east to watch 17again.

lol. i didn't really like zac efron before the show.

after the show, im sorta okay with him.. haha.

i just don't really like his eyes. xD

ate newyorknewyork for the first time..

ate quite a lot.. haha.

and i seriously seriously want another phone that has arc slider and qwerty keypad >_<

sigh. oh wells.

save money =.=

joycepoon told me to blog, so i'll blog. ^^

2009-04-22T21:45:00.002+08:00

yeah hellos.

mid years in 2 weeks gosh.

i just (FINALLY) transferred my family's china trip photos..

and those pics were in my memory cards since december leh..

thats how long they've been untouched haha.

found some really nice photos.

didn't even think the photos taken there'd be that good.

haha.

i'll be uploading to fb soon,

but i'm kinda slow at these kinds of things,

seeing how long it took for me to get the

china photos out of their cards and into the com.

okay and erm,

i'm getting drowned in the amount of work thats piling up arnd me.

ESPECIALLY A MATHS.

but i just can't find the feeling of urgency i need so much to

get me started studying hard for exams.

argh.

yeah. i've blogged ^^

2009-04-19T01:00:00.002+08:00

this song is totally STUCK in my head.

lol.

i just heard it on the radio today.. ^^

oh and i realized i like dance songs too!

makes me wanna dance =P

today i my calves, shoulders and right arm was aching. =.=

sigh.

2009-04-17T21:51:00.002+08:00

after serving the guests of speech day.. we were glad to be out of blazers ^^

sushi don at peninsular..

today was the first time i'd gotten a medal. in my life.

and today was also the last time i was ever going to do council duty..

when i realized i felt so sad.. lol. its like, 4 years of having done duty.

i'll miss shifting the chairs and tables back to canteen.

bleh.

okay so no more council duties. =/

and next week i'll be standing down for photography.

2 more weeks to mid yrs. ^^

2009-04-15T21:23:00.002+08:00

some stuffs happening in my life seem to make me have lesser things to say.

so yeah, that would explain why this entry is so short..

and maybe thats the reason i haven't updated in a while.

but anyway i learnt three new songs today,

one of them's this.

2009-04-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

stayed over at wenhao's on friday night for cell group gathering.

watched the curious case of benjamin button from 3am to 5am and managed to stay awake.

and only me, ben and sheila managed to stay awake throughout the movie.

it was kinda boring man..

then in the morning woke up at 9am and watched i am legend.

then church..

ypm..

sat at lobby stairs.

sat at playground.

bus home with joyce,

cabbed to her house,

watched marley and me,

slept at 12am at joyce's house,

woke up at 3.21 am cuz the fan wasnt on,

slept till 6.30am,

bussed back home with joyce,

bathed, went to church..

blah blah blah..

now im sitting here.

2009-04-09T22:07:00.003+08:00

mr toh used the visualizer to erm.. do that.. and then he froze the screen when i turned and smiled xD

our school nearly got disqualified for the 20 by 100m, cuz well, no one gave us

proper instructions for the baton passing..

we were supposed to pass within these 2 yellow lines but

we stood before the first yellow lines, lol.

oh well, im not that unhappy about it.

i went to run!

and so run i did. ^^

and immediately after running the thigh muscles at

the top felt like they'd been torn or something.

haha. but i could still walk lah. barely.

it was fun overall~~

i like!

then went to pizza hut to eat dinner.

their curry chiicken pasta doesnt taste like curry chicken =.=

2009-04-08T23:34:00.002+08:00

"i find myself back to where i started.. without you.."

from poon's friend's blog..

wow seriously, i think my mood's been riding waves or something..

its like, i'll be happier for a few hours, then it sort of wears off and my mood goes down,

then the down mood wears off (sort of) and it becomes okay again...

=.=

yeah anyway,

tomorrow'll be sport's meet..

i'll be participating in the 20 by 100m relay xD

and i'll be the 19th runner (SO COOL!)

haha. hopefully, my muscles won't be aching by then,

cuz i've already drowned myself in salonpas and yoko yoko..

and i'll probably be going to peninsular on friday w/ poon, sarah and maybe sophia.

^_^

can't wait... =D

i'm hungry.

bye.

2009-04-06T21:39:00.001+08:00

listening to jay chou while trying to finish studying for geog, ss and chem.

2009-04-02T20:46:00.003+08:00

had training today for the 20 by 100m relay for sports meet on thursday..

i actually found it fun!

it actually gave me my energy back..

as in energy to study again..

probably cuz it was something different =D

haha and in the photo i felt like i could peng san anytime

and cherlyn felt like she didnt have legs anymore..

oh we had to do two rounds of the track for warm up,

then a lot of stretching stuff,

then some funny exercises,

and then 3 times of 100m sprinting on straight lane,

then 10 mins break (during which i was trying hard to recover)

and then another 3 times on the curve lane..

goodness..

then 20 sit ups to warm down.

2009-03-31T21:46:00.002+08:00

i get so tired when its nearing the end of the school day..

and the heat and humidity just makes everything worse.

then in the bus i sit down and like, wana die.. lol.

i've still got a mountain of untouched A maths homework (tuition and school),

lots of tests to study for,

and lots of things to revise for the mid years.

guh.

meanwhile i can't really learn much bossa nova,

cuz i have to do WORK,

so i only practice what i already know.

='(

listening to olivia ong again. ^^

2009-03-29T22:51:00.003+08:00

eeyer. poon, stop being so vain.. xD

muahahahahhahaa~

okay haha.

today had bible study group outing, but not many people could make it =/

played one game (super ex la! $4.30 per game per person leh!)

then decided to go watch people waste money on the claw machine where u try grabbing toys..

got me to you bear one leh!! i want!!! >_<

then bought shorts from this fashin for $9 ^^,

and i shirt i couldnt fit into =.=

yup.

bro tells me to memorise chords for bossa nova.

so its like learning how to play the guitar all over again,

cuz the chords are mostly all different.

2009-03-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

i'm really gonna try n pick up bossa nova..

i LOVE the rythm!

so nice~~

but the videos are so craazily fast!

>_<

2009-03-26T17:36:00.006+08:00

school's a bit tiring cuz of the idiotic weather..

so humid and hot!

=.=

yeah so ytd this was what i saw when i came back from the canteen.

^^.

E maths: teacher asked rina to do the qn, then she wrote that, and then the teacher drew the angel.. lol!

physics: teacher was revising forces, then he drew this of himself xD

2009-03-22T21:06:00.003+08:00

everything would be so different if we had tangible evidence to support our faith,

but what would faith be for if there was tangible evidence?

anyway,

i've realized that the few things i'm clinging on to,

they won't work out.

as much as i wish it would.

so, its okay i guess (actually its not..)

i'll, try to.. move on?

and start studying..

i'm just tired..

of all this emotions that're weighing me down.

Linkin park - somewhere i belong

(when this began)

I had nothing to say
and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(i was confused)
and i let it all out to find, that i'm not the only person with these things in mind
(inside of me)
but all that they can see, the words revealed
is the only real thing that i got left to feel
(nothing to lose)
just stuck hollow and alone
and the fault is my own and the fault is my own

i wanna heal i wanna feel what i thought was never real
i wanna let go of the pain i've felt so long.
erase all the pain till its gone
i wanna heal i wanna feel like im close to something real.
i wanna find something i've wanted all along
somewhere i belong

and i got nothing to say. i cant believe i didn't fall right down on my face
(i was confused)
lookin everywhere only to find.
thats its not the way i had imagined it all in my mind.
(so what am i)
what do i have but negativity
cuz i cant justify the way everyone is looking at me
(nothing to lose)
nothing to gain, hollow and alone
and the fault is my own
and the fault is my own

I will never know myself until i do this on my own
and i will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
i will never be anything till i break away from me
i will break away. i'll find myself today .

2009-03-21T22:08:00.002+08:00

mood swings are so idiotic.

they make you feel like shit.

grrr...

today i woke up at 1 i think..

haha.

and it was so hot.. =_=

then met poon, went to bugis to collect phone,

then bus-ed to church,

blah blah.

erm.

then dinner with cell grp ^^

ate 3 paos for $2 cuz that was all the money i had left,

and i wasn't starving anyway..

then went back to church to meet poon again..

yeah.

then bus-ed back home in a 15 with poons,

and dropped two stops after my house (by accident) and walked home.

what a day.

2009-03-21T00:50:00.002+08:00

so tired!

went to ikea with weng n xinyi,

looked at tables cuz weng wanted one for his room.

then he dropped me at ecp for class bbq thing, ^^

which is exactly the same pit as when yunhui celebrated her bdae.

outside national sailing club, area G. pit 77 la..

okay so i got there about 6+,

and decided to help cooking at abt, erm.. 7+?

so i stood until 9.30+..

then i decided to WALK home.

yeah.

walk walk walk walk walk, bought coconut juice for $1 at the. food place at the lagoon..

and walk walk walk some more.. haha.

so i started walking at 9.40, reach home at 12am..

2 hours n 20 mins of walking!

after a few hours of standing!

goodness!

2009-03-20T03:19:00.002+08:00

I DON'T KNOW.

SHALYN DOESN'T KNOW.

THIS IS INSANE.

I'M LIKE, GOING CRAZY.

urgh..

you read tintin comics right?

imagine mr thomson, who just fell and hit his head,

and there r like, the stars flying around him..

yeah, thats like, me..

2009-03-17T21:50:00.002+08:00

i really wonder,

looking at myself,

what really goes on deep down in people's hearts.

under the smiles, under the small little shows of sadness that i sometimes see.

how much chaos is raging in the one small organ called the heart.

i wonder if everyone really has lots of raw emotions running around inside,

and i wonder if the people i see everyday are actually silently crying out.

i wonder what it'd be like if everyone could express their fears, their regrets, all their feelings about something.

but thats impossible right?

after whole lifetimes spent trying to fit in and trying to make sure people don't think you're idiotic or anything.

2009-03-17T17:19:00.002+08:00

my study life is so dysfunctional =_=

12.20pm - came back from sch n ate lunch

1.20pm - sat down and started work..

1.30pm - got kind sleepy after doing some e lesarning stuff, n checking wat hmwk i have.

1.35pm - put my head on the table n SLEPT.

3.09pm - started looking for articles on straitstimes.com for english hmwk.

now - still doing my first mind map for english.

argh.

2009-03-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

did the disc profiling thing today during student leader's convention..

yayes~

i wanted to see if i've changed..

and my results did la..

from being an sc in pri school i think,

to cs in sec 2 or something..

my results today was: i'm a high C.

and C people tend to be analytical, calculative, cynical, and emotional.. their greatest fear is criticism..

BUT i think i'm still a CS coz i have quite a bit of S personality in me too.

and S's greatest fear is conflict.

yeap.

thats about all i can remember.

i wrote this, yeah.

2009-03-15T23:35:00.001+08:00

people full of angst.

full of emotions that can't be expressed.

different lives,

different things we don't let out.

we wanna know why others are down,

to leave our own problems behind.

hoping maybe being able to help others

would make us feel better.

feel more in control.

you won't understand why what i'm facing affects me that much,

just like how i won't understand why what you're facing affects you that much.

if i asked you if u've been through what i have,

you'd say no.

and if you asked me the same thing,

i'd say no as well.

but there is one other thing,

one other reason why i wanna know whats getting you down.

that is, seeing you in so much pain,

it makes me hurt as well.

being so helpless while you go through all that agony

alone in your heart,

having nothing to say to make it better.

all you can do for me,

and all i'm asking,

is for you to give me just a little bit of your burden to share.

i'd gladly help you carry that weight.

yeah, maybe wanting to help is for selfish reasons,

so i won't feel so helpless,

so i won't have to wallow in my own world of misery,

but if i asked you why you wanted to know my problems,

what would your answer be?

i seriously felt like punching something today,

2009-03-15T21:28:00.002+08:00

so full of angsty emotions that can't be expressed.

yeap.

today i went to ikea for lunch with poon!

and the place was scarily crowded.

lesson learnt today: don't go to ikea on a sunday.

and then the queue for the food so long,

and there was a short circuit in the place.. they couldn't fry the chicken wings lol!

but after a while it was okay.

then we both got 10 meatballs for $5,

and a lot of other stuff la..

i was so full after that.

i'll be quite sick of ikea food for a while now.. haha.

heres acoustic version of 'how to save a life' by the fray.

2009-03-15T00:03:00.009+08:00

"Turn your eyes upon Jesus,

look full in His wonderful face,

and the things of the earth,

will grow strangely dim,

in the light of His glory and grace."

2009-03-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

went dress shopping with cherlyn and huilian today!

went to tangs first cuz there was supposed to be really cheap dresses there..

but they got sold out!

so sad..

so we went to far east,

walked rounds,

bought earrings,

tried dresses..

and after cherlyn left me n huilian met sihui n ate subway..

then i went off by myself to buy the belt thing,

and bought a casual halter dress for $27.90 (which is quite a good price, for a dress..)

haha yeah..

tmr my mom bringing me to look at more dresses for the wedding..

dont think i'll buy any though..

no money liao!

>_<

2009-03-11T22:39:00.003+08:00

i've realized that many people pretty close to my heart are leaving or have left..

first alicia,

now my bro,

then my daddy'll be moving out.

i'm sad..

today me, two bros and my dad went to have dinner to celebrate dad's bdae and as a farewell dinner for korkor jem..

just ordered chilli crab and 'beijing ya'.

then desert was so cool,

they put the mango pudding on top of this cup with dry ice.

and there was smoke coming out form underneath the mango pudding.

nice effect~

yeap,

and korkor jem had his hair cut.

2009-03-10T19:54:00.002+08:00

ahaha i still feel like shit sometimes.

i'm sad that my bro's gonna enlist into navy on thursday!

i'll only be seeing him once a week now =/

and there'll be no more gigs ='(

then i'll be using his room to study..

and i'm planning to like, lock myself in there after school to study study study study..

because there'll be nothing else to do anymore i guess.

then my oldest bro going to taiwan for army for like 2-3 months.

and i gotta cut down on the time spent on playing guitar man.. haha.

today's daddy's birthday but i dunno what to get him..

i haven't wished him happy birthday yet too,

i think he thinks i've forgotten and i feel so bad now!

but i dunno what to do..

i'm like, in the process of writting something like a letter now.

its so hard to get presents for ur dad.

especially when you don't have money to spend.

i'm seriously like, broke now..

my mom has 6k left in her bank and dunno how thats gonna last.

so yeah.

she didnt give me the allowance for this week cuz she had to draw money from bank first.

haha so i'm TRYING to not spend so much on food!

>_<

don't laugh, cherlyn. hehe!

2009-03-09T18:33:00.002+08:00

is it just a phase or something?

coz i think i'm having some major self esteem issues now..

or more like, there are a few particular people who i feel are so much better than me.

guh.

don't know la.

i don't know myself.

anyway this song was intro-ed to me.

2009-03-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

my goodness,

will i ever be able to play like that!?!

its crazily fast!

*dies*

ah but i think i'm starting to like bossanova..

its real nice ^^

cuz of olivia ong haha.

i already like listening to jazz drummers a lot though.

they're real cool.

2009-03-05T18:44:00.002+08:00

haha today's E maths class was hilarious!

i laughed till i teared..!

lol, er, ya..

we thought this guy in the class had an.. erm.. erection,

then the E maths teacher went,"eh, aren't you a bit old to be having unexplained erections?"

LOL.

so the class cooled down a bit after laughing so hard,

and then the teacher was staring at the guy,

then the guy put his hand in his pants or something!

and the teacher was like,"EH THERES A LADY SITTINGBESIDE YOU LEH!"

ROFL.

it turned out the guy had put his small bottle of deodorant in his pants.

omgoodness damn funny la!

2009-03-04T20:57:00.002+08:00

i don't know why but i always seem to be feeling tired nowadays.

now one side of my head seems to be aching.

like a migraine or something but thats not exactly it..

must be cuz of pe.

haha.

feels like the week's been kinda slow yet fast at the same time.

oh and its been like a week full of tests so far.

coming soon are chem qualitative analysis test, physics test, english compre common test..

and i just remembered i have A maths homework to do thats due tmr.

i haven't done any work so far, mostly just blogging and facebook-ing and guitar-ing. sigh.

heey gosh i seem to have no life anymore!!!

all i can think of to talk about is studies leh!

and the occasional 'guitar' or 'outing' word in my blog entries.

argh!

I CAN'T WAIT TO FINISH OS.

and at the same time i wish there was more time to slack.

i'm lazy to start studying.

so i think i'd better start going to the library again. =/

2009-03-02T21:17:00.007+08:00

felt so tired today..

maybe its the weather,

but i felt like i really didn't want to go on doing this anymore.

'this' as in, stressing myself out about Os.

really really tired..

i complained to cherlyn, haha.

and its not the studying thats killing me.

its that i know i need to study but i never seem to get down to doing it.

and then its always on my mind,

that i need to study, i neeed to study.

how many more months till mid years?

till Os?

and still i haven't even started revising.

guh, this is tiring shit man.

but i guess giving up is harder than it seems, haha.

everything around me is pushing me, so i can't stop.

wish there was another dimension i could go to, where theres no one else,

and a year there would be a second here.

then i could hide there until i got sick of it,

and come back to do something more meaningful with my life.

like, STUDY FOR MY OS and get that 6 POINTS for L1R2B2

so i can get into PSYCHOLOGY in TP which has a cop of 8 POINTS.

x_x

but yeah,

i remember that i've asked God to get me into that course, with my points at six.

so, "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find;

knock, and it will be opened to you."

all i have to do is have faith.

so i'll hold on to that faith.

ah, jia you to me luh.

=_=|||

got chem test tmr,

physics test on thurs,

english compre test on friday.

oh and there are a lot of reaaaly nice black and white photos here if u wana see.

i just remembered that photography depends a lot on luck. haha

go look at the pics!

http://suunday.blogspot.com/2008/08/most-beautiful-black-and-white.html

2009-03-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

statistics really pissed me off..

stupid textbook didnt help me understand the thing at all.

=_=|||

didnt study until after i reached home, which was after dinner.

plus, i played a bit of guitar.

argh.

i need to start studying man.

sigh.

i was in quite a bad mood today.

many things getting on my nerves.

one of the 'many things' is myself.

2009-02-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

Olivia Ong - lovefool

2009-02-28T00:52:00.000+08:00

haha so hilarious la!

i wanted to get candid of poon,

but then i saw the picture and i just started laughing at my own face omg!

so funny la!

2009-02-28T00:20:00.002+08:00

went to ikea today with joycepoon n sarah!

went to eat first, cuz we were super hungry and this crazy poon go n buy so much!

in the end couldnt finish two chicken wings and some fries and coleslaw..

lol!

walked one round,

then tried to decide on a table cuz poon wants to revamp her room lol.

poon bought sarah a red pillow to hug, haha.

then later on she bought me a yellow crab!

couldn't find the cactus i wanted though,

so i didnt buy any..

='(

oh and today's A maths test was horrible.

i might fail yet again.

sigh.

2009-02-26T20:39:00.001+08:00

A maths drives me nuts.

i have a test on trigonometric function and identities,

polynomials & partial fractions and discriminants tmr.

oh. my. gosh.

*dies*

2009-02-25T21:53:00.002+08:00

had learning journey at marina barrage today...

we were supposed to facilitate the sec ones and help them learn stuff there.

stuff like, how the barrage works, why do we need to have our own source of water, blahblahblah.

before going i thought, oh haha, sec ones.. okay!

and during the trip i was like, wa lau.. these sec ones.. they think we dumb or what?

=_=

no seriously..

they irritated me.

(erm this doesnt include josiah okay? haha.. josiah is cool.. xD)

okay anyway,

it rained in the evening, and stopped when the sun was setting..

an at the mandarin garden bus stop joyce smsed me and said," i saw a rainbow"

then i looked up and saw this super clear and like, super real raindow in the sky..

it was so beautiful..

i just kept staring at it.

i actually had my d40 with it but i bloody gave the sd card to the teacher so i couldnt take the photos with it!

argh..

so i had to make do with my phone.. sigh.

once the sun set,

the rainbow faded away so quickly..

it was so sad..

very very sad..

2009-02-24T20:43:00.002+08:00

i was put on this earth to do what i can for people.

to serve others,

to expect nothing in return.

lend a listening ear,

help someone out.

because God blesses me to bless others.

so i will just be.

its okay that its unfair.

and if i have ever done things and complained,

or was ever unwilling to do something,

i'm sorry.

to God, and to you.

2009-02-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

Colbie caillat - Realize

That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

[C:] If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[V2:] Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side, oh-oo-oh-oo-oh.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other but..

[V3:] It's not all the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other
Just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now...

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

2009-02-22T15:02:00.003+08:00

ytd was my bro's 3rd last gig with his band,

at cathay ben&jerry's.

sad!

cuz my bro has to go into navy.

well anyway, me, weng, win, dew (surprisingly!!) , pun watched.

gwen came later on,

and xinyi came when we were having dinner at billy bomber's heh!

i've decided, i'm going to play at ben&jerry's one day.

maybe not so soon, coz i really dont think i'm good enough yet heh!

and probably going to solo because i doubt i'd be able to get a keyboardist soon enough.

so.. yeps!

i have poa test tmr!

i havent studied!

A maths plane geometry hmwk is due tmr!

i havent done!

oh and joycepoon gave me a cactus today!

im so happy!!

my nose was driving me nuts the whole of today.

kept sneezing,

then later while having tuition it was LEAKING!

=.=

now i am gonna sleep for a while before going dinner..

sigh.

2009-02-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

Colbie Caillat - The little things.

2009-02-19T20:41:00.002+08:00

during E maths class a classmate was sleeping.. and she sat in the first row lol.

then erm..

the teacher was like teaching, and then he saw her sleeping and said,"and sydnie faint already.."

haha!

then later on she slept in a way that her head was on her arm and her arm was stretched out, so blood couldnt flow to her hand..

then it was turning blue leh!

then i said," omgosh, disgusting leh.. wake her up la.."

haha then the teacher went," no la let her sleep. she must have had a very long day yesterday"

then yuxian ( sitting beside sydnie) started stroking sydnie's ear very lightly.. and the teacher was staring, then he used a really seductive voice and went," syydniiee...."

omgoodness la! i was super funny lol!

hehe!

ah, goodness.. so many funny stuff in school.. im gonna miss this kinda life after Os..

2009-02-18T18:47:00.002+08:00

pe was super tiring.

but it was UBER funny haha!

f.y.i. we dont much like our pe teacher.

he made us do circuits today.. as in stations..

where we have to do something..

station 1) shuttle run sorta thing

station 2) jog on the spot

station 3) bench push thing.. or bench press ah? i dunno..

station 4) sit ups

station 5) i dunno what its called..

okay then haha.

everytime he turned to face another station,

we'd stop doing the exercise..

it was so funny la!

cuz break out had a scene that was something like that.

then A maths tuition today was madness.

trigonometry =.=.

today's weather was much better..

2009-02-17T20:55:00.003+08:00

lol..

ss teacher had a migraine today..

poor teacher..

she kept complaining that she wanted to throw up xD

haha.

anyway this happened in E maths class..

teacher: if you find it very warm in my lesson and you feel the need to unbutton one or two buttons for the guys, feel free to do so.. but don't unbutton so many la..

yuxian: cher, the girls leh?

teacher: erm, i wish i could say yes la but sorry..

haha lols.

oh and a few days back he was going through sets,

and he wanted to give an analogy of the intercept and union thing..

so he used rina and alex as an example LOL.

"rina and alex are two circles. this circle is rina's whole family, and this circle is alex's family. when rina and alex intercept, there is children in the middle.

eh. sounds wrong right? alex intercept rina..."

then he wrote the set notation thing for alex intercept rina which was something like this

Alex ∩ Rina = ....

then he drew a line up the intercept sign. like

alex ∩ Rina

GOSH.

THE WEATHER IS HORRIBLE

2009-02-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

yup, horrible, idiotic weather.

it seriously sucks lor.

makes me fall asleep during lessons (not that i dont fall asleep even when the weather's fine =x heh).

so warm n humid and it totally makes everyone lethargic!

=_=

so today i was dozing off in every lessons except physics (woah!),

but only because the teacher made us do a worksheet which i (quite unusually) found it easy.

you know why?!

cuz it was on MASS WEIGHT AND DENSITY lol..

one of the easiest topics.

and btw, i suck at physics. ='(

plus, had english remedial and then A maths lecture (

in air con! yaye~)

then stayed back a while to finish hmwk then went home n joycepoon came over!

haha.

sian, i have a social studies test on wednesday. eeek...

2009-02-15T20:43:00.003+08:00

yeah hi!

go listen to the song below this post if you haven't already.. haha.

okay aesthetics excursion was quite cool!

my first time in esplanade..

the dancers were super cool!

haha..

the whole thing was pretty funny too (its actually a comedy dance thing)

sad ending though.

before that, went to ikea with CHERLYN to get wydre a bday present.

we ended up with the idea of getting a jar n puttin some small toys inside..

heh!

then i walked past the plant section n decided to get junshen a cactus cuz the present i'd already gotten him was a bit.. like.. not enough la haha.

so wydre's present n junshen's cactus travelled with cherlyn and i from ikea to marina to esplanade, and inside esplanade, and back to our homes..

i fell in love with junshen's cactus.. haha! SO JUNSHEN U BETTER GIVE IT LOTS OF LOVE AH!

ya.. i called it the travelling cactus. lol.

i'm gonna buy myself a cactus one day and i'll bring it with me everywhere i go.

and i'll call it "cactus".

(yeah i know, im mad.. but yeah, if you meet me one day with a cactus, then u wont need to ask why xD)

then ytd, valentine's..

erm, same as usual.

nothing lor.

haha!

jammed with poon, sarah and the children ministry ppl ^^

today, had fun playing for children ministry,

went to eat PORRIDGE for erm.. brunch?

cuz sarah, joyce and i were talking bout how macs was super horrible.

all the unhealthiness and stuff. LOL.

hahaha i find it quite funny.

then took bus 15 with poon (i had to meet cherlyn wydre n junshen @ tampines while poon was going home)

and poon played slow goodbye..

and then..

haiyah.

liddat lar.

go read the lyrics too.

AND NOW I HAVE TO FINISH MY HOMEWORK AND I GOTTA try to STUDY!

CUZ I NEVER STUDIED A SINGLE PIECE OF *&^%$#@ SINCE FRIDAY!

AHH.

2009-02-15T17:10:00.002+08:00

lesley roy - slow goodbye

I can read the lines On your face
And they're telling me Everything I already know
I hold you in my arms But you're light-years away from me
Slowly sinking under alone

So I act cool On the outside
But it's eating me alive

Cuz when it comes to you There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me when you don't
I see it in your eyes all the compromise
I can't take another Slow goodbye

Sitting in the park After dark
Smoking cigarettes Biting on the black of my nails
Cuz all I ever wanted was what you took away from me
Trying to make it right but it's too late

I'm a hopeless case
On the inside
And it's eating me alive

Cuz when it comes to you, there's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me when you don't
I see it in your eyes all the compromise
I can't take another slow goodbye

I die a million times
Every time when you look me in the eye
Cuz I've heard it all before
The same game go around and around
But I still end up with nothing but heart ache

Cuz when it comes to you there's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me when you don't
I see it in your eyes all the compromise
I can't take another slow goodbye

2009-02-14T15:22:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's everyone!

2009-02-12T20:09:00.003+08:00

today first period was free period for those not-taking-chinese-anymore peeps~

so pei yun, cherlyn and i went to sit at the round bench kinda table..

then haziq came and sat with us with his MOHAWK HAIR =.=

crazy guy la. come sch with mohawk.

and then i dunno how, but we ended up on the topic of HAZIQ'S UNDERWAR =____=|||

peiyun said," oh today not the spongebob one anymore ah?"

and haziq went,"no la.. erm. eh i forgot what underwear i wear today"

cherlyn was sitting the chair beside him.

AND HE UNZIPPED HIS PANTS

and LOL cherlyn was like, STARING o.0 HAHAHAHHAA.

i went,"uhhh omgoosh..." and put my face in my hands.

then peiyun was like," CHERLYN WHY U STARING"

wah seriously ROFL la.. then haziq stood up and showed us what he was wearing underneath.

=.=

sorry i looked, but it was red with blue stars everywhere.

bwahahah.

er then haziq sat back down and zipped his pants..

then dunno how we ended up there, but he said,"this one hold my balls.. boxers are like, loose loose you know?? loooose.."

amusing la..

then me and cherlyn were stunned by his.. erm.. whats that word? open-ness? LOL

then peiyun said," ya la, this guy.. every morning he wake up steaming one.."

(erm and she knows that because she used to sit beside haziq in class.. dun think slanted =x)

lool i forgot what we said..

then haziq referred to his 'ahem' as his little brother..

and then we got to the subject of haziq's hair and cherlyn said,"this morning u must have been busy with ur hair right"

haziq said,"no"

cherlyn said,"huh but i only saw your sister in the bus today"

haziq:"oh yeah.. haha."

cherlyn,"i think your little brother very cute"

ROFL xD

i went,"WAH CHERLYN, VERY CUTE AH?!"

aaaahahahah so funny la!

okay ah but A maths was a total mood spoiler la..

teacher gave an indices sirds and logarithm pop quiz.

the question were super difficult, i didnt know how to do,

total marks was 25,

i only managed to do a 3m question.

sigh.

nearly cried after that argh.

felt like hitting something.

so frustrating.

so frustrated.

2009-02-11T20:15:00.002+08:00

OMGOSSSSH!!! so cute lar!!!

soooooooooooooooo cuuuuuute!!!

its a poodle-labrador puppy apparently.. so cute!

can't wait for this friday's school aesthetics excursion to esplanade to watch break out!

can wear own clothes too!

and before that gonna go out with cherlyn heh.

to ikea to buy a bdae present!

and maybe buy a few V day presents.. dunno if i got the money though.

this valentine's day's gonna be the same as usual.

haha.

i'll be having cm rehearsal so i cant go for ypm argh!

irritating.

then the week after i'll be going out with xinyi, weng, win, pun, and hopefully (but not probably) dew. we'll be going to cathay ben & jerry's to watch my bro's gig! so no ypm again >_<

bro's gonna be entering the naval force in march..

so no more gigs after that.. =/

2009-02-10T20:04:00.002+08:00

i suddenly find poodles so extremely cute!

especially the brown ones!

although i really dont like those that got their hair cut.

but they're so cute!

2009-02-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

haha.

i have a geog test tmr and i havent studied wee~

how cool!

i'm going mad!

8 more months of this crazy life about O levels to endure,

2 more months of the wacked up rush to revise everything since sec 3,

and then to have to do really well for mid years so i can apply for dpa.

after mid years,

prelim 1!

then prelim 2!

then, oh my gosh!

O levels!

i would be over the moon when this whole thing is over.

elated, ecstatic, exhilarated, enthralled (by the fact that i'd finally completed my Os. *this is not the correct application of the word*), and highly exultant.

why do all the happy words start with e???

haha. im starting to feel like i'm developing some erratic behaviour.

this is crazy. i'm crazy.

2009-02-08T14:44:00.007+08:00

look, its skinny us!

saw the look on your face.

i watched.

you dont want me there.

... so i'll just leave it.

i'll say no, i wont go up and greet,

i'll smile, and walk past.

and things'll fade, and maybe one day, i hope,

you'll realize that.. well.. ...

haha. im okay.

mm..

i've been a little.. er.. weird, since last night.

in an 'i-dunno-what-i'm-saying-so just-ignore-me' way.

poon can testify to that ^^

screw in my brain's probably loose.

cuz, yep, sometimes i just dunno what im saying.

like im drunk.

haha.

drunk on unrequited love?

eee. so lame.

i saw a mynah holding a lizard in its beak outside church.

then the lizard's tail was still twisting n turning on the floor.

and i watched the bird pick the tail in its beak too..

i think the bird wanted to kill the tail.

it was shaking its head with the tail still twisting in its beak.

gonna spend the rest of the day doing my work.

mr bean tau huey is nice ^^

2009-02-06T19:00:00.003+08:00

this song's been stuck in my head since

i heard it on the radio lol.

its so nice~

today went to chinese medical hall..

cuz i had this bump thing at my right hand wrist..

its like, theres just some thing under the skin la..

something like water, except not so soft.

haha.

had it b4 when i was in pri sch,

then i had it poked twice,

first time was using a needle that was heated over a fire,

second was using a small needle, then they poke poke,

dig dig, and squeezed the stuff out (its like clear jelly-like thing)

lol ya..

so i went again, and this time they got me to lie down on the bed,

then they took 2 needles and poked it across the bump >_<

i wasnt looking when they poked la..

lool!

so the needles formed an X across the bump la..

pain.. but it was bearable. i laughed it off. lol.

my mum was on the bed next to me and she had like,

twisted her wrist carrying heavy luggage,

they poked 3 needles into her wrist n arm and plugged it

into this electrical device that made the needles vibrate lol!

ya so after a while the doctors came n pulled out the needles from my wrist..

and that was it lor..

lol.

so fun.

oh ya then my mom had to put some suction thing on her wrist,

then i asked if it was painful,

so the doctor put one on me lol!

now i have this round circle on my left arm..

2009-02-05T21:08:00.002+08:00

Chemistry qualitative analysis practical today!

we tested for anions.. =)

it ws the last period of the day already, and it was 3+..

and i had 2 hrs of A maths earlier on.

i think i was going a bit mad already..

ya then i kept laughing towards the end of the practical.

the people doing the experiments at my bench were so stressed by it lol!

Alex (trying to figure out what to write in the 'observations') : eh shalyn! how to write!!

me (busy washing test-tubes, and hands were wet): huh, just take my book and see la.

1 min later.

Alex: EH! shalyn!!!! how to WRITE!?!

me: what how to write!!! just take the pen in ur hand n put it on the paper la!!! *LOL*

when class was ending.

alex: wheres the dustbin ah?

me: dustbin? in your mouth lah..

and then i just kept laughing..

loool..

i can't wait for the aesthetics excursion to esplanade next friday!

we gonna watch breaout!

dont need to wear school clothes!

yayye!

2009-02-04T20:58:00.004+08:00

i may not know how much you're hurting now,

but i feel my own hurt, seeing you going through all this.

i wish i could help in some other way than just being there for you.

it doesnt seem enough..

but you have to remember, and never forget,

God will make a way when there seems to be no way.

In all this pain,

dont forget God, and don't forget me yeah?

If you find that i dont talk so much to you now, its cuz i have no idea what to say to help ease your suffering..

Now i just wish we could all get back that Poon i got to know at CAC '07.

2009-02-02T18:25:00.002+08:00

the weekend was so crazy.

and this week's probably gonna be extra crazy too >_<

so much work to do!!

bleh.

i think i've grown about 3 more white hairs today..

school from like, 8 to 4 la..

the israeli exchange peoples have come to temasek!

i told cherlyn,"ya, you can go get ur ang moh bf now.."

haha!

okok i'm gonna start studying from now..

argh.

super sian..

but at least i'm actually doing stuffs now instead of slacking around lol.

cya round.

oh and xinyi hates her new jc apparently..